I'm not feeling very good this morning. I can't say that I'm really sick I just feel kinda wierd. There is so much on my mind I guess. The job, moving, bills, all that kinda stuff... I also worry about what lies ahead for me. I never used to worry about my future that much, but being out here pretty much alone has triggered some panic on that subject from time to time. I guess I don't feel as secure as I used to....I don't know. The relationship I'm in right now doesn't help much. It's always up and down, never steady for any length of time and that gets me worried too. We're doing ok I guess, but just not the way I'm used to having things go...it's hard to explain. We went out for a couple of beers last night and that was nice...I guess I'm over thinking things this morning.

“And then, like one who unchooses his own choiceAnd thinking again undoes what he has started,So I became: a nullifying unease.” – Dante’s Inferno