Our life is what our thoughts make it.

---Marcus Aurelius

Staying motivated has got to be my goal for the day! I’ve really been struggling trying to keep going on all cylinders. I don’t know what the problem is, but I just don’t feel right on a lot of different levels. During the day I feel like I’m on an emotional roller-coaster… on minute I'm up, the next down, and then everyone in a while I’m upside down!!!!

I’m hoping it’s just anxiety from having the H A but I don’t know. I feel like I’m in dry-dock, stagnating…or something. I want to move forward but I don’t know where to. I want to dream and plan again but it’s like my heart just isn’t in it anymore…and for those of you who know me (if you’re even out there) you know that just isn’t the old Cliffhanger. It’s hard to talk to anyone about this … I guess that’s why I started this blog…it’s more fun than a diary, and there is always that secrete hope that someone will drift across cyber-space, read something here and relate and maybe even contact me and yell at me to “SNAP OUT OF IT!!!”.

Anyway... Today is a new day! And I'm ready to give the roller-coaster one more ride.